It is about that disturbance. I need to get over it! Seriously, why am I here? I am hoping that by writing it down can somehow bring in some calming effect. I hope.
And no. I am not writing about you.
And sorry. The entry has to be encrypted. I have not exactly finished writing so there might be some updates…
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